SuperBowl

I am so glad I didn't decide to bet on the superbow, I sooo wouldve taken the bears but in the playoffs I've never been so off in my picks. then with college basketball my whole betting bankroll...GONE. Prettty much broke and I'm kinda looking for a job. But at the same time I don't want any excuses if I don't do well in School. I think I'm totally capable of doing both but I'm holding back.

I ate so much junk shit this week I think I just gained back a few pounds, plus didn't work out AT ALL. I have excuses for that too but not really good ones. I trying to make my mom buy a treadmill for my house.

I'm still really confused about a few things like whether or not to live on campus, and if I did where would I live. I need a good flow chart or somethin to think it through haha.
Everytime I talk to any girls I'm like damn I wish I lived around campus so I could be talkin to these chicks all the time and relax a bit. And having the whole convenience of not takin the f-ing train everyday. ok-ok enough of this
FIRST-Must get into Pharmacy School, I get so caught up in dreaming up the future I totally lost myself in the present. Past few days Ive been telling myself "Just be In this moment, just think about now." like when I go to talk to anybody when I think of what I'm going to say ahead of time and I go say it, it comes off SOO wrong. Its in my voice my body language it feels so unnatural when shit comes out pre-planned.

ok I want to write more but gotta get some work done for tomorrow