DAMN!

I messed up on a big ass test yesterday. Failed so bad I might not even be able to pass the class, but won't know for sure until next week. Man I was distracted, thinking about the party that happened on last sat and pharmacy school and my future.

I never really got what people meant when they say just to be "in the moment", I'm really feeling that now. When talking to people and getting things done you just need to be there focusing on what you need to do now.

Well it was a WAKE UP call. I am now focused on what I need to do. I will not be distracted. My focus is on MY goals.
I feel better already, but I am having a hard time studying.

Listened to some Tony Robbins, about the Finding your purpose in life part, I am really trying to figure that out. I'm still not sure about it but I want to do this exercise I heard off of http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/. Really awesome site I want to take a better look at it when I have time. But the thing is to write down what you think your purpose is but you keep on writing and revising and rewriting for how ever long it takes until you eventually write down something that makes you cry. I can't even imagine myself really crying. Sometimes I feel so lost and then the next day I could feel so driven . I dunno , thats the worst ever Im attempting to take that out of my vocabulary that whole "I dunno" phrase.

OK well I'm gonna be finding out in a couple of weeks if I got into Temple's pharmacy school and worst come to worst if I fail this class I'll retake it in the summer. BOO thatd be 6 extra bust assing weeks and 1300$ I don't wanna spend.

Weekend plan- Study, Plan Meals, Plan workouts, Study. Figure out more financial Aid.

I am NOT going out this weekend. I am focusing this weekend on MYSELF. I am turning my phone off right NOW and just wait for 300 to come out in two weeks!

Busy busy busy

Interview tomorrow morning, real deal here fellas I'm ready!
My friend turned 18 on Valentines! n had all is people come together for the big throw down on sat night. Goooood time, met all his people his school and He is gonna be coming to Temple next year so awesome
Nothing really happened for me at the party I got drunk, never said that before but I know last night I was out of it.

BIG test on thursday, Tried to study today but I didnt do shit, ahh what happened to me, lol I just got addicted to myspace n facebook this past week, I can totally see how that happens now
I think I'm being "validation seeking" and when you get comments n wat not it's like feeding the ego and its on display for everyone to see makes ya feel good. Just fuck that stuff its about CORE CONFIDENCE, tylerdurden writings are awesome I cannot wait for his book

I ate so Much I can Barely breathe

Uhg I'm totally stuffed right now and I haven't worked out in almost two weeks. I'm having a hard time concentrating on everything.

Well I stopped by the mall for a bit today, didn't do any approaches although there was at least a few sets I could have at least opened.
I'm in line at this store and this kid in front of me starts talking, he has an english accent from london. This chick next to him starts getting soo into him. the whole "Wow thats so awesome you're from London, What's your name??," The guy seemed so not cool with it, and he was almost mumbling, and said he felt "embarrassed" then the girl just says "oh there girls in London aren't like this" blah blah blah
I never really thought that being from a foreign country n talking different would really change anything. So my friend and I thought about going upto chicks with some kind of fake accent and make up that were from some random country, just to see if we could get a result like that. Haven't tried it yet, but Im dying to for shits n giggles. My accent needs a bit of work lol I have a feeling this whole thing could be hilarious

And I just bought a whole outfit for my interview and Im going to schedule it tomorrow.

SuperBowl

I am so glad I didn't decide to bet on the superbow, I sooo wouldve taken the bears but in the playoffs I've never been so off in my picks. then with college basketball my whole betting bankroll...GONE. Prettty much broke and I'm kinda looking for a job. But at the same time I don't want any excuses if I don't do well in School. I think I'm totally capable of doing both but I'm holding back.

I ate so much junk shit this week I think I just gained back a few pounds, plus didn't work out AT ALL. I have excuses for that too but not really good ones. I trying to make my mom buy a treadmill for my house.

I'm still really confused about a few things like whether or not to live on campus, and if I did where would I live. I need a good flow chart or somethin to think it through haha.
Everytime I talk to any girls I'm like damn I wish I lived around campus so I could be talkin to these chicks all the time and relax a bit. And having the whole convenience of not takin the f-ing train everyday. ok-ok enough of this
FIRST-Must get into Pharmacy School, I get so caught up in dreaming up the future I totally lost myself in the present. Past few days Ive been telling myself "Just be In this moment, just think about now." like when I go to talk to anybody when I think of what I'm going to say ahead of time and I go say it, it comes off SOO wrong. Its in my voice my body language it feels so unnatural when shit comes out pre-planned.

ok I want to write more but gotta get some work done for tomorrow

YES!

I just got a phone call from my mother telling me the lady at the pharmacy school just called her and told her I AM getting an interview. Its the only pharmacy school I've applied to so everything MUST go well. I feel really excited and like I have a new thing to prepare for. Man so many kids started off doing this pre-pharmacy thing y freshman year but I don't see ANY of them coming with me except one girl out of the hundreds of kids that started off with this. Like I would be entering pharmacy school at 19 Id for sure be the youngest one there.

So I got into a car accident and dont have it back. I feel awful mainyl b/c I haven't worked out this whole past week. Man I must reach my goals losing 1-3 lbs/week.

I'm listening to The Foundation cd's and they're pretty good, I feel like I'm understanding what he's saying and just been hearing them on the train rides.

Tomorrow Night-SUPERBOWL PAAARRTY