DAMN!

I messed up on a big ass test yesterday. Failed so bad I might not even be able to pass the class, but won't know for sure until next week. Man I was distracted, thinking about the party that happened on last sat and pharmacy school and my future.

I never really got what people meant when they say just to be "in the moment", I'm really feeling that now. When talking to people and getting things done you just need to be there focusing on what you need to do now.

Well it was a WAKE UP call. I am now focused on what I need to do. I will not be distracted. My focus is on MY goals.
I feel better already, but I am having a hard time studying.

Listened to some Tony Robbins, about the Finding your purpose in life part, I am really trying to figure that out. I'm still not sure about it but I want to do this exercise I heard off of http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/. Really awesome site I want to take a better look at it when I have time. But the thing is to write down what you think your purpose is but you keep on writing and revising and rewriting for how ever long it takes until you eventually write down something that makes you cry. I can't even imagine myself really crying. Sometimes I feel so lost and then the next day I could feel so driven . I dunno , thats the worst ever Im attempting to take that out of my vocabulary that whole "I dunno" phrase.

OK well I'm gonna be finding out in a couple of weeks if I got into Temple's pharmacy school and worst come to worst if I fail this class I'll retake it in the summer. BOO thatd be 6 extra bust assing weeks and 1300$ I don't wanna spend.

Weekend plan- Study, Plan Meals, Plan workouts, Study. Figure out more financial Aid.

I am NOT going out this weekend. I am focusing this weekend on MYSELF. I am turning my phone off right NOW and just wait for 300 to come out in two weeks!